its night...

i was trying my best to stay happy... but i couldnt!!!
its so pissing! i tried to be positive with my thoughts..
but to no avail! i dont see why should i bother trying to keep myself high anymore...
the more i try... the more stupid i look...
dont tell me 'your happiness lies in your hand' well! its all crap!
it doesnt... its more like the more you yearn for it the more you dont get it...

lost and embarassed...

thanks for the gifts you guys gave... greatly appreciated!!
well i was hoping i would get a gift from someone else...
but i guess i was thinking too much... diaoz!

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