its evening...

its contradicting... its mysterious...
im falling for it... you dont see it but you can feel it...
its awesome...

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its night...

i have learnt:

- whats hate
- motivation comes within oneself
- leave no room for regrets
- never take parents for granted
- stop wearing a mask
- set your goals right
- control your emotions dont let them take control
- the past dont equal to the future

Gary the banana... Amin the mina... Chuan Lay (vivian) the music man... Wayne the magic man who never fail to amuse me...

i dont know why... its weird... i tried talking to you... but then...
its just weird... i dont know how to tell you...
seriously i regret telling you that... well its ok...
over reacting? perhaps...


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its evening...

Lydia are you sure? is this what you want?
theres not turning back... what you said cant be taken back...
its for real... hurt so badly... what you feel now isnt as bad as what hes feeling...
the pain that he feels is double yours or even more... confused? whats holding you back?
get over it Lydia! move on! hes so nice to you... so sweet... listens to what you have got to say... put in the effort to make you smile... what more do you want?!
slap yourself awake will you?

thank you... you made me feel like a princess... you are the best! im so so so sorry...

who bothers to listen to my problems? who will be there? i dont know...
im so confuse now... no use crying...

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its night...

all right... if thats the case... nothing to say...
im fuming mad... so stop asking... im controlling myself...

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its night...

i was using the lappy... and then i felt something crawling on my body...
first i felt it on my shoulder... the next moment it was at my butt...
hello?! i bet he or she is feeling desperate! it was so disgusting!=( turned me off!
i had to jump about before it gave up and drop on the floor... i screamed!
it looks like a cockroach... millipede... abit of those two... he or she is a mixed blood??
now the crawling feeling is still there... am i scaring myself or is there more than one insect around me?

phew... i thought dad would scold me for my bill.. well! he didnt!=)

ck... im sorry! oops! next tym then i meet you ok?=)
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its evening...

fuming mad! what the nana!

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its night...

i blogged...

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its afternoon...

im in pain... the gastric thingy is getting me in my nerves...
it has been bugging me since last night... and i had a dream that i was pregnant and the foetus who was in my womb was killing me... phew! it was only a dream... and then i realised the dream i had had something to do with my gastric pain... i was in pain since i was in lala land!?
oh man! i just so pissed!


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its night...

you greeted me... thats so polite of you!

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its night...

ive updated!

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its afternoon...

i was chatting online... and then my granny asked me to answer the door...
two policemen standing at my door... shocked! the policeman who was talking to me has got a cute look... haha! he had a bashful smile on his face... haha! what a policeman! i think its hes first tym doing household interview...

me : hello!
policeman: good morning! i mean afternoon!
me : erm... yup?
policeman: oh i just want to check with you if anything weird happen recently?
(he has got the short tongue accent! that made him sound even cuter!)
me : nope! its peaceful here!
policeman: can you write down your contact number?
me : here you go! (wrote on the paper he passed...)
policeman: all right! thanks alot! (smiling bashfully still... off he go!)
me : okay! you take care!

thats was the end of our conversation!=) haha!
i dont know why! guys in uniform look do smart!
nice nice!


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its afternoon...

i woke up in the afternoon... saw one missed call... as a result i missed my POA remedial... Choir(didnt really want to go! oops!)...
had brunch cause i missed my breakfast tym... never mind... whats the use of attending choir when Peiwen isnt there... so im not that sad when i missed my choir session... haha!
so tired!
horrible horrible! you baddie! shouldnt have let them got hold of your handphone...
but nevermind what done can be undone... haha! here's something for you... *arbish!* haha! i like!=X

heres a song to all... (just imagine that im singing it... oops!)
Purest Of Pain by Son By Four

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Chorus
Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
that I didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking

Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice

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its night...

i spent my day like this....

Morning:
i was busy picking out clothes to wear for the chalet... mum was scolding me for not dolling up like how a girl should... oops!

afternoon: cab there... again! dishonest cabby!!! cheated me!! haha! its ok! i believe in retribution... went for bowling session with jasmine cherie rebecca huzali rahim muhaimin farhan(cup) akif(if im not wrong!) and irwan... ate mcdonald with amarpreet wenhui mariah and peiwen... went cycling at pasir ris park... the very last tym i cycled the two rider thing was three or two years ago with jun hao... this tym i cycled with wenhui... she had a hard tym man!
cause i cant balance so she had to cycle and balance at the same tym...=)
the five of us cycled past a muscular guy... oh my goodness! hes really muscular...
so mariah came up with this mad idea of ringing our bells when we zoomed past him...
we went ring ring ring... laughing our hearts out! slacked awhile and then we went back to our chalet... tym to set up barbequeing stuffs...

night: two teachers came... Mdam Lee and Miss Cheong (lao jiang)... so happy!=)
started barbequeing... took some pictures with Farhan the cup... muhaimin... jasmine... rebecca... faiza( S)... have not seen the pictures yet... after eating...
we had a water bomb war... all right! i know we were wasting water... but couldnt help it... it was so fun! filled up bags of water bombs... throwning here and there... so fun! every single one of us was dripping wet...=) entered the chalet room... i was curious about the key and so i meddled with the key which was linked to the whole rooms electric system... oops! my bad! the guys were busily playing Xbox... they were playing so happily... because i remove the key from its original place, the whole room blacked out... fareez who was in the toilet shouted... the boys playing xbox went 'ahhh!! lydia...' my bad! jees... so i apologised and they laughed... phew! nothing happened! bidded goodbye to those at the chalet... Jianbin (Xige) was being lame... he asked me to call him once i reach home to show that im safe and sound...=) and i did... way before i went off we were crapping about who would want to rape me... haha! i took 15 minutes to hug those girls there... this is how we bid good bye! haha! next i went to the beach with kenneth jiaying chenghao and amarpreet... it was so dark... reminded me of my seal sports camp which happened to be around there... feel the sea water under my feet... looked at the brightly lit ships over at the other side of the sea.. so fun! chenghao thanks for washing my slippers for me... going to the beach just reminds me of orange and me...
it was during the seal sports camp... we were talking about the ships and we were looking at the sky leaning side by side... drawing heart shape won the sand with our name inside... so sweet and romantic! cant blame it cause we are both libras...
after going to the beach... kenneths dad picked us up... bid good bye to amarpreet jiaying and chenghao... kenneth opened the back seat door... so i thought he wanted to enter first... who knows he signalled me to get in first... and so i refused as i thought if his dad were to drive me home... i would be alighting first and so i should sit near the door... so we both were like 'you faster enter la! aiyo! you go first!' i didnt want to waste my tym asking him to get in first and so i entered... next thing i know... he closed the door without sitting... i went 'huh?'... and then he sat in the front seat... then i realised he was being polite by opening the door and closing the door for me... ('-'!!) haha! so hes dad talked to me about what are my plan after O level... so we blabbed soon i reached home!=) the end...

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its night...

i spent my day like this....

Morning:
i was busy picking out clothes to wear for the chalet... mum was scolding me for not dolling up like how a girl should... oops!

afternoon: cab there... again! dishonest cabby!!! cheated me!! haha! its ok! i believe in retribution... went for bowling session with jasmine cherie rebecca huzali rahim muhaimin farhan(cup) akif(if im not wrong!) and irwan... ate mcdonald with amarpreet wenhui mariah and peiwen... went cycling at pasir ris park... the very last tym i cycled the two rider thing was three or two years ago with jun hao... this tym i cycled with wenhui... she had a hard tym man!
cause i cant balance so she had to cycle and balance at the same tym...=)
the five of us cycled past a muscular guy... oh my goodness! hes really muscular...
so mariah came up with this mad idea of ringing our bells when we zoomed past him...
we went ring ring ring... laughing our hearts out! slacked awhile and then we went back to our chalet... tym to set up barbequeing stuffs...

night: two teachers came... Mdam Lee and Miss Cheong (lao jiang)... so happy!=)
started barbequeing... took some pictures with Farhan Suhaimin... muhaimin... jasmine... rebecca... faiza(the S)... have not seen the pictures yet... after eating...
we had a water bomb war... all right! i know we were wasting water... but couldnt help it... it was so fun! filled up bags of water bombs... throwning here and there... so fun! every single one of us was dripping wet...=) after that i went to the beach with kenneth jiaying chenghao and amarpreet... it was so dark... reminded me of my seal sports camp which happened to be around there... went to the beach... feel the sea water on my feet... so fun! chenghao, thanks for washing my slippers for me...=)

it night...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAN YING SWEETIE! YOURE ONE YEAR OLDER NOW! LOVE YOU!
sorry for leaving early!

tired! i dont feel good... as expected im down with fever... aww...
i had so much fun at the chalet... its been centuries since i last popped by Escape...
Huzalis sun tan lotion didnt work on me and cherie... didnt work on him either...
we were standing under at places where theres sun...
never mind at least i had my first try on sun tanning... weird people do weird stuff!
we were busily snapping shots here and there but then nothing came out great!
in the bus... while waiting for rides... everywhere...

i went for the pirate ship... sat at the far end... it was fun... i had to imagine mariah as someone that i dont like...
i wanted to hug her so badly... all right! i was scared! i was screaming so badly... that i was so thirsty! but im happy because i screamed all my stress away...
next... i tried the wet and wild ride with cherie... we were thinking of ways to pose when we see the camera... oops! she sat in front while im sat the back... we went real crazy because we scream way before getting splashed! after the first splash... i was already wet... she looked so dry...
i had the idea of changing seat with cherie... of cause i didnt... the second splash was the funniest one... i covered my mouth when we were 15 metres high! i wanted to scream! if only you saw cheries expression!(of cause i didnt see either! she took the front seat... if i were to see her expression can you imagine? im no god! i dont want to die at such a young age! theres no space for me since shes taking the front seat!('-'!!) ) i imagined her expression because she told me she swallowed a gulp of the dirty water as she was screaming! haha! aww! thats was hilarious!
shall stop here!=)

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its evening...

what the nana! he wrote me a testimonial... first tym man!
i guess he must be feeling so bored at home... thats why he wrote me a testimonial...
haha! to think i wrote one for him! he write no more than ten lines...
giving the excuse that he lives under the same roof as me thats why nothing much to write...
('-'!!) at least he wrote one... oh man! why am i so demanding?? at least its not some kind of nonsense... better than nothing! haha!

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its evening!

aww.... you are just so cute and sweet to be with!
i miss you too! you rock my world!

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Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things i wanna say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone
Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you cryin'
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone
I am the man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreamin' of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You helped me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone
I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you been dreamin' of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love
LIke a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just the time I'd save the day
Take you to my castle far away
I am the man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreamin' of
Gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the Glory of Love
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the Glory of Love
We did it all for love...

its night...

on wednesday...
i was so tired... had a hard tym guiding the secondary one in ACM...
the kids from our school are pretty smart... they are hyper active!
but short concentration span... i was screaming here and there with peiwen...
luckily i know the technique of shouting... if not i bet i would have suffered badly from sore throat... the whole guiding session wasnt that bad because on our way home in the bus provided by school, the Japanese whom were in the another bus right beside us waved at us...
oh my god! they looked so cute! imagine someone

on thursday...
went for a KFC session... was there slacking...
and then hui zhuang and i saw hui min... so we chatted... and then we ended up chatting with a old lady! she needs someone to talk to...

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its night...

warmth... your smile leave such a deep impression on me...
im sad... i wont deny... cause soon i will miss that smile...
i will miss you...
a smile hides a thousand tears thats what Honsonn said...

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