its afternoon...

things can be pretty bad at times! sigh!
last wednesday i gave up studying for my chemistry and physics test.
i couldnt understand a single thing that i read. mental block? stress?
i dont know. its driving me crazy.
i spent the whole night crying. i cried for not putting enough effort in my studies.
i cried for every single thing that shattered my weak little heart in the past.
too tired i fell asleep without knowing. and best of all without flipping through a single page on both the textbooks. i ought to kill myself. i should have known better having tiny bits of knowledge on both the subjects wouldnt do me any good.
i know im going to fail both the papers. im feeling really depressed!
worst of all im missing him out of no reason.
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its evening.

sad! im going to miss Mr Lim and Miss Lim!
im going to miss the time we get to play floorball like mad!
the time when i get to chit chat like nut.
miss miss lim's teaching and mr lim for his blur look! haha!

haha! i still remember the day when they first came and joined us for pe lessons.
they were kind of quiet looking so fierce. they were standing at one corner when Mr Golf was telling us rules on how to play floorball, at that moment i thought 5N1 was going to have a hard time during Pe. soon we got into groups and started playing!
and that was when i get to speak to miss lim. she wasnt as scary as i thought!
as for mr lim, i didnt get to speak to him as he was on the other side of the parade square!
slowly i got to know them better when we played floorball. BANANA! CHONGSTERS!
all the funny and crapy stuff!
thanks for the chocolate! you guys would be greatly missed! all the best!
muackies and huggies!

oh na na! its time to shed off some fats!=X

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its night...

im smiling! cant you see? well im sure you cant, UNLESS you're peeping at me!
eek! what the na na!=X had lots of fun playing floorball!
IM IN LOVE WITH IT! all right! though i dont get to come in contact with the ball much often.
haha! i had fun being the goal keeper! i was busily chitting chatting with WenWen and Mr Lim who was helping to 'get rid' of the ball before i started to get too stressed and excited over a pathetic plastic ball! (for the Lydia's sake! i started screaming even when the plastic ball was metres away! that was how excited and stressed i was!) haha!
yup! Im a goal keeper who does not act like how a goal keeper should! oops! im still excited by the fact that i played floorball today!
cant you see everything ends with exclaimation mark!!! yeah!


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its night!

all right! thanks to Kelvin my big brother i got it done!
im happy!=) thanks!


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late at night

i used to think everything seems meaningless if i am doing it all alone.
well now i dont! infact i enjoy spending time with myself.=)
signs of depression/being a loner/independent?!
im not sure either. im just rediscovering myself and im loving it!

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gloomy night

sometimes i just dont understand how one can change 360 degree.
unbelievable. have faith in yourself and trust yourself.
you can do it! i'll pray for you.

i watched POTC today. it was GREAT!
aww... johnny depp looked great with the eye liner and shadow!
went to take a look at the newbies of MC at century square
i got called up on stage for some games session.
NO THANKS to cherie peiwen and jasmine.=X
and THANKS for volunteering me because i won the game!=) haha!
muacks!

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night...

where's the motivation?
hardly any.


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Night...

how could this ever happen to me?
knowing the truth just breaks my heart.
did you just hear the shattering sound?=(
i guess it was His way of showing me things arent as simple as i thought.
Gullible. perhaps its just the way i am. i choose to see things the way i want instead of facing up to reality.
now that i've seen reality, i ought to change.
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its night...

life is short... 'move on' that's what people always say.
first of all how many actually did that? or rather does anyone know how to do that? born with the ability to speak yet nothing that come out from their mouths make sense! their actions simply contradict with what they claimed! sometimes others just dont understand how you feel.
its either they are DUMB if not you're the one who's DUMB! you would soon realise you're the ODDIE living on the ever changing half rotten ball known as the Earth!

when people dont see things the way you do. they label you the LONER. no point making them understand you. the harder you try the more they think that you're weird.
making you the outcast, suffering in silence. whats wrong with those IMBECILE?
acting as though they own the world? it hurts to see one whom i treasure being treated like a rubbish! it pains me to see this happening. dont ever tell me im over reacting!
wait till you get a taste of it.

i'll pray.
be there for you as promised.

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