coMputer lab...

ok! now we are all having war... music blazing here and there... all korean craze...=)
im feeling bored now... im taking my N this coming monday... oh my Lydia!
so im not going to blog blog throughout the whole week!
to Rachel... i will miss you... must eaT well anD sleeP well...
siGH! cant chat wiTh you online... once my exaMination over...
i will crap with you about things happening at my side...
i will be back after a week!!
haha... study haRd everyone! add fuel!!!
fukUs... i love you guYs!

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iN the his rooM...

im tired! verY tired... feeL liKe givINg the maTh night consuLtatIon a miSs...
buT I better nOt... laTer i aM accoUnted fOr p.Sing lINg zaI... preTty saD to see thaT graNNy beiNg treaTed liKE thaT... i shOuLdnt haVe chanGed mY seaT cauSe oF the smell... im feeliNg guilTy... siGh! shes the oNe whO caRrys plasTic baG iN herE HAnd EVerywhere shE goes... theRe! thaT graNny... anYoNE recaLL? i doUBt sO... iM goiNg now!
taTA...=)

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niGht tyM...

Im heRE agian... jusT wanT to leT him know, Its purely coincidence thaT we bumP into one another...
im not a stalKer anyway... haHa! i wont want to do suCh underhand stUff... haha...
i diDnt really study today... i mean during the night consultation... oNCe agaiN... i saw hIm... haHa...
doNt have to find out who he is... i was walkiNg wiTh rebeccA whEn we meT tricOcia...
she waS talKing to mE abOUt oranGE... im preTTy surpriSeD thaT she woUld chaT wiTh me aboUt hiM...
she saID thaT she waS shoCked thaT oranGe woUld chanGe tiLl suCH stAte... serioUsly i waS amAzeD thaT shE actuallY proMPted the coNversatIOn mOre thaN havINg oranGE aS ouR coNversatiOnal topIC...
mY coNclUsion afTEr havINg to chaT wiTh her...
*peoPle changeS as anD whEn thEy lIKe... havINg baD haBits suCh as smoKing...
buT doNT giVE excUSes suCh as peeR pressure...
cauSe iF yoU set your miNd to be a gooD girl or good boy for lIfe no one can change that...
sO pleasE donT tell mE iT duEd tO peEr pressUre thaT you do thiS anD that cauSe it onlY tells mE thaT yoU aRe not maTure... bUt i doNt miND havINg he or ShE As mY FRieNd...
contradictiNg HUh? haHA...('_'!!)

all riGht! enoUGh oF my preachIng! tyM to talK abouT soMething else...
richaRd senT me a teStimoNiAl... yuHoo! i havE beeN waiTing foR thaT siNCe the dAy I laSt chaTted wiTh hiM...=)
he kepT hIS proMise... yeaH! sO he was rigHt to object thaT 'promisEs aRE meant foR publiCation noT for fulfilLmenT' yeah!
to RicHArD! me... weN anD liNg zai wiLL dO soME catCHing up wiTh yoU afTer N leveL!=)

todaY i was iN schOol... i truLy agrEE wiTh whAt mRs Oh saiD... thiS (assembly) maY be oUR lasT tyM siNGiNg the schOOl soNg... sO we shoUld siNG oUT loUD... and yeah! evEryoNE sanG oUT loUD... i meaN those whOm wERe aroUNd me diD... iNclUding me...=) touChed! iF iM ouT of schOol... whEre wiLl i be wiThoUt the presence oF my freaKIng classmaTes? anD weiRD teachers? aHH! i doNt wanT tO knOW... i stIll wanT to spend aNotHer yeaR iN schOOl!

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laLAla...

i chaTTed oN liNe wiTh miss LeOw... bikinI... liNg zaI... nOw me goIng to prePAre MY stuff...
goIng baCk to scHooL... i saw him... i smIled at him... he was oUtside his clasS... he smIled aT baCk...
woO... thouGht he woUldnt...
wondeR whY is she sO dang snObbish! PARASItE!
haHA... shaLl stOP heRe... goOd nIGht tO aLl! me gO poM pOm le! taTa...
jEes! goiNg baCk to schOOl for niGht class!=)

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niGht...

ok ok! i admiT... i couldnt help but to stare in that direction...
i was tRying hard to concentrate on what im suppose to do... i was trying hard to do my math homework...
i got all the formulas mixed up... i couldnt get it done... mind went blank when i saw him...
cheng hao sat in front of me... he kept blabbing about Boon... alamak! causing me to lose my concentration cause he was blabbing nonstop... in the end i kept bombing him with math questions till he totally forget about boon... dang!
when i finally focus on what im doing, cheng hao started to blabber again... he told me boon and friends were walking towards... not sure... (didnt want to lose concentration on what i was doing...)
he kept telling me to look in the direction where boon is standing... while jian bin told me not to look in that direction... he told cheng hao not to make fun of me... haha...=) showing the xi xi jia zu spirit! yeah!
tofu looked funny in the shot taken but eeebie... haha... she was trying to tell eeebie to be fast and he snapped...
making tofu look as though she was suffering from face cramp...

after that shot... we were told to go home as it was coming to nine... and so we packed our bags and went home... all of us walked towards the general office... and bid good bye to the teachers who came... and we overheard the servant telling mr silva about his ghostly encounter which happened minutes ago... haha...
i said: ' nan dao uncle you ying yang yan?!? ' and my sweet classmates laughed so did the teachers...
after that ling zai... shou da dee... zhuang... hui... eeebie and me went to the park for a walk...
and then we went home... while walking home, i ka jiao ah bu using shou da dee handphone...
i still remember ah bu... me and chiam always sing this song...
' wo dee yi ke xin... muack! muack!'
those were the good old days! i miss it...

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cold cold..

oink! im b0red to tears... in the computer lab now...
why? hua wen ke ma...
i thought moo moo went missing today...
as i searched my bag like mad! i called home to ask mummy if she saw moo moo...
luckily it is at home... phew! if not my tears will be activated...=)
dang! having poa lessons later on... bored!
shall stop here...

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niGht...

ok ok! i admiT... i couldnt help but to stare in that direction...
i was tRying hard to concentrate on what im suppose to do... i was trying hard to do my math homework...
i got all the formulas mixed up... i couldnt get it done... mind went blank when i saw him...
cheng hao sat in front of me... he kept blabbing about Boon... alamak! causing me to lose my concentration cause he was blabbing nonstop... in the end i kept bombing him with math questions till he totally forget about boon... dang!
when i finally focus on what im doing, cheng hao started to blabber again... he told me boon and friends were walking towards... not sure... (didnt want to lose concentration on what i was doing...)
he kept telling me to look in the direction where boon is standing... while jian bin told me not to look in that direction... he told cheng hao not to make fun of me... haha...=) showing the xi xi jia zu spirit! yeah!
tofu looked funny in the shot taken but eeebie... haha... she was trying to tell eeebie to be fast and he snapped...
making tofu look as though she was suffering from face cramp...

after that shot... we were told to go home as it was coming to nine... and so we packed our bags and went home... all of us walked towards the general office... and bid good bye to the teachers who came... and we overheard the servant telling mr silva about his ghostly encounter which happened minutes ago... haha...
i said: ' nan dao uncle you ying yang yan?!? ' and my sweet classmates laughed so did the teachers...
after that i went to central park along with hui... ling zai... zhuang... shou da dee... eeebie...
walked for awhile and we went home...
while walking home... i ka jiao ah bu using shou da dee handphone...
ah bu... me and chiam used to sing this song' wo dee yi ke xin... muack muack!'
haha... those were the good old tyms... i miss it...

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night...

its night tym... for god sake! everyone knows its night tym unless they are blind...
ah hui thanks for accompanying me in school... <3!
to other fukus... dang! i miss you all like bees miss honey...=)
i spent a with hours studying with ling zai... kare neh... zhuang...
under fah dee lahs block... haha... i miss badmintoning with you guys...
i will be back! after N... kill all the unwanted fats...
saw jing xiang... then hawwei... vivian cycled me home...
she is just as steady as xi ge... i stood behind while ling zai in front... with wan quan tagging behind with ling zai's bike... nearly pom! phew! i bound to cry out loud if it happens...
thanks for the steady pom pee pee ride girl! sometym i wonder...
if only we could express our feelings and thoughts well...
if only we could turn back tym...
if only we could do this and that...
if only we could stop 'if onlying'...
life would be a great one...
dang! feel like bashing up that pathetic guy who invented 'if only'...
i often wonder... what will happen if our love ones leave before we do?
cry? more likely in my case...
regrets? feeling remorseful?
unable to right all the wrongs inflicted onto them?
unable to bid your last good bye...
never get the chance to tell them how much you loved him or her...

just like what he said...

Guy Sebastian

MAke Heaven Wait
I see you smiling every day Looking back at me like nothing ever changed
I swear i heard you call my name But in reality
Its just your picture in the frame Why am i here Without you
When there was so much for us left to do
How could the angels have come so soon

If i could make heaven wait I'd find a way to ask god if he had
Made some mistakenIf he'd save your wings
For another day If only i could make heaven wait

All your clothes are hanging up
Not a thing's been touched I left it all the same
I wish i could press rewind
And go back in time
Just to see your face again
Cos i miss youI need you
I'm so alone without you here with me
You are the reason that i breathe

If i could make heaven wait I'd find a way to ask god if he had
Made some mistake If he'd save your wings
For another day If only i could make heaven wait

And every night i search for your starIn the sky (asking why oh why)
Lord knows i would trade in my life for
A chance to say goodbye

If i could make heaven wait I'd find a way to ask god if he had
Made some mistakeIf he'd save your wings
For another dayI f only i could make heaven wait

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night...

REFLECTION
sad? oR shOuld i saY iM numb? Lydia... noPe! u shoUld chanGe the 'n' to 'd'! cauSe indeed you are DUMB...
you dumb bell... i never know how to cherish things till the day i lose it... only then will i wake up...
so what if i wake up? did i make it a point to face reality? i doubt so...
my dreams are shattered... ive changed alot... bet many agree...
i love love but i dont dare to love anymore... its suppose to be something im holding on...
something that motivates me... but it seems its not true anymore...=(
im such a looney... dang it! told you so promises are meant for publications never for fullfillment... now i finally understand it...=) and i learnt it the hard way...
now study hard... do well for your N level...
and you caN have all the fun in the world...
and love all you want! you love looney!=)
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iN ah maO rooM

today? nothinG ma... woke up early... but i refused to wake up... i continue rotting on my queen size bed...
jeeS! its never a queen size bed on saturdays anD sundays... cause jean cones to my house on weekend... imagine three person squeeziNg one bed? anD the worsT oF aLL... Im iN the mIddle... no wonder im so flat... haHa... lasT niGht i woke uP in the middle oF the niGht to eat my fries... daddY brouGht them for me... cause i told him i was hungry... haha... sweet huh? envy? confirm no!
cause daddies do that...

joke of the day!!!
this guy from friendster asked if i could make friend with him...

our conversation : " hi ker yi make fren wid u mar?? u hao ker ai ehehe.. are u single???"

i replied... :" haHA... thaNks for your coMplimenT...=) friends aRe foR liFe whY noT? takE carE... "

he replied back: "haha! intro urself more lei! er u how many ex?! like wat kind de guy!?"

i repleid: " haha... what a way to start a talk... would you believe ii if i tell you im a lesbian... haha... "

wonder what would he reply... ('_'!!!)

nighT...

danG! mY seCond attempT oN bakIng cooKies faIled! saD... granny SAid thAt iTs fatEd thaT i cant do pastrIes...
its kind of dishearteninG... siGh... noPe! im not going to give up... quoting linG zai's infaMous phaSe: " this iS smaLl tHe peaNut!!!" haHA... iT seemS i goT tO strIve harDer... baKe more anD thiS meaNs i wiLl cooK uP a whoLe lOt oF disaStEr reAl sOon... haHa... noW ah jiE is baRRinG me fron enTeriNg thE kiTchen... nO choIce bUt tO oBey... aLL i caN do is tO coMplaiN tO biKiNi... haHa... soRRy ah bikiNi... goT to trOuble yoU! hMmM...

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suNNy...

she kicked my butt... jeEs! i waS wiTh mY laLa priNce in anothEr channel... anD cauSe oF her i ended my coNversatioN with mY guY abRuptlY!=( danG! iTs oNly eiGht in the moRniNg yoU knOw!!! im tireD! siGh! i promised heR tO accoMpanY for breakfasT aT Deli fraNce... wE enDed uP eatiNg caFe carTel iNsteaD...
i waS sO hungrY thaT i atE moRE THAn EVeR... it waS yuMmY! haHA... i waS eatiNG twOpersoN's sharE...
yeaH! expectEd! lOoK aT mY sizE anD yoU wiLl undeRStaNd... haHA! i'Ll gO oN dieT! AFTeR My examInatiOns...

whaT haPPened laSt niGhT: i waS iN school wiTh My freakIng craPpy friendS bikIni... toFu... ah ka... liNg zaI... qiaN... eEEbie... Kare neH... aH zhuanG... in schOol... haHa... noT foRgeTTing otherS whO were thEre... haHA...
i thInk manY werE theRe physiCallY buT noT mentaLly... iM oNe oF theM...=x ooPS! dont knOW whY i felt blaNk...
jusT blanK... i abSorbeD noThiNg yestErdaY throUgh oUt tHE entiRe evenIng... eyeS diD noT darT arouNd... as thEre waS nO one tO bIo... i was more of a lazY pIg thaN a craZy pig yestErdaY... i waS sO laZy that i suGgestEd go gai gai aroUnd schOol arEa to ah ka... bikIni anD tofU... haHA... oiNk! iN the end only ah ka go...
carElesS aS usuaL... i forgOT aboUt bikiNi's sweeTs... to biKinI... so soRRy! ah kA tooK jame's aND vinceNT 's(the boY who's baG molestEd mY fiLE... haha!) orDer... anD we wenT tO thE miNi maRt... saw cheNg haO anD we maDe hiM briNg back tHe orders... anD we tOok oUR tyM tO walK bacK to school... we saw Jb... anD made hIm zai boTh oF uS... wiTh ah ka iNfroNt aND me aT tHe bacK... haHa...

afTer thaT we wenT bacK to schOOl... pacKed oUr baGS anD leaVe! doTs! suPpOsed tO be iN liNg zai'S hoUse bUt endeD uP goiNg tO eeEbIe's hoUSe... qians secoND hoMe? haHa! afTEr that i wenT hoMe...=)
its suPPose tO be a haPPy daY tomOrrow...
buT nOw its more oF a soUl reseachIng daY... anD sO froM now oN...
25th of eacH moNth shaLl be mY reflectiOn day...

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haPpy sha shA la! i meaN it... iM haPPy...

chaTTed with hiM onLine foR hoUrs... saw beloVed lehCaR too!
relAx! brO... yoU'll be Ok... afTEr soMetym... it taKEs tyM to heaL...
hOnsonN toLd me this when i cried over hawwei : "everyday would be Valentines Day if you both truly love one onother"
sO doNt be saD... caUse woNderfuL memories aRe siGns of true love... haHA.. i had a wonderfuL tym chatting wiTh you... smile... tyM to move on... like you said 'life's a bitch... got to learn to grit your teeth and smile ...'
you deserve soMeone bettEr! =) anD taKE carE oF yoUSelF too! i loVe yoU... haHA... ooPs!=)

yestRerdaY... i waS bacK in sChooL wiTh lINg qiaN zhuaNg keNNeth hUi xiong... i wAs hyPer actIve tIll i saW ah booN...
theN a senSe of awkwarDness overcoMe me... he saW me... or ratHEr i saW him... jeeS! dang... i turned quiet... aPPareNtlY i felt ghaStlY coLd for nO reason... i haD a haRd tyM concenTratiNg on mY woRk thoUgh i manAged to...
i admiT mY eyes weRE DARtinG in his dirEctiOn... buT only foR awhIle caUse... i wanted tO see what he is doIng...
after thaT... reBeCca toLd mE somethiNg oN oUr waY hoMe... i laUghed it off... caUse seeiNg is believIng... but i didnt see so i dont really believe... chenG haO toLd me the saMe thiNg... i wont go into detail what they told me... haHa...
shall see whaT haPPenS tOniGht... anYmore surprisE? whO knOws? now iM chaTtiNg wiTh hUi aNd fah dEe laH!

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iN ah mAo'S room...

hMmM... jEes... hMmm.... i thInk he iS cuTe... i doNt knOW eitHer... is thaT a cruSh? iS thaT sO? haHa... i liKE tHe waY he smIles... haHA... bet he is a lIbra... 90% suRe... mY accuRatE siXth sensE saYs sO... haHa... jEes... oH miNE parDon Me iF i oFfenD anYoNe... i doNt carE actuaLLy... ooPs! boYs iN claSs? noPe! canT maKe iT... jEes! haHa... caUSe diffErenT peoPle goT diFferenT view... haHa...=) sO doNt shOOt me aH! haHa... wonder aT tyMs... hOw rU hUa fiNd her guY... hMmm... conclUsiOn: love iS bliNd...

i juSt loVe beiNg a lIbra... i enJoy loVe lIfe anD frienDshIp... i thiNk im cuTe... oOps!=) haHa...
it's noThiNg wroNg praisiNg yoUrseLF cuTe...=) cauSe iT's a kiNd oF arT... sEe iT in a arTistIc view anD yoU wiLl uNderstAnd... nevErmiNd iF yoU doNt... cauSe iT doesnT maTTer iF yoU duN see iT... haHa... blame iT oN yoursElf thaT yoU doNt haVe thE arTisTiC feeL iN yoU...
oK la! jUst do whaT yoU waNt... doNt be boThered bY whaT othErs saY... cauSe yoU knOW yourselF beTTer thaN anYoNe elsE... sO shOwer tHem nO aTTentiOn wHen tHey aRe nastY towards yOU...

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aIr coN rooM...

haHa... jEEs! coMbiNEd claSSes oF 4n1 anD 4N2 foR moTHer toNgue lessoN...=) oH ya! haPPy biRthdaY maRtiN!
yoU arE oNe yeaR oldeR le... haHa... tO thiNk i stIll remEmbeR youR birThdaY... yoU this hearTleSS caD... ooPs! haHa...=) oiNK! sO sian... (aH liNg's itChy haND... anYhoW tyPe type heRE aNd tyPe typE thEre...)
stacKS Of hOmewoRks tO tackLE... (YaN liNg's goNe) iM goINg craZy... haHA! (alAmaK! yaN liNg's bacK!!!)
jeeS! i miSs thiS frienD oF miNe... (woNder whEre he iS... i fA huA chI la!)
oK la! shAll stOP heRe cauSe it's recEss tyM le... taTA!
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bOuT tO raIn

mE iN aH maO's rOom sO daRk... i waS havIn mOOd swiNg earLIeR oN... mUSt Be becaUse of tHE moNthLy thIngy... iM feelIng beTtEr Le... iM meeTIng lIng... aH hUi... weN... aND kaRe neH for diNNer laTer... oiNk! haHa... iT's raiNiNg maN... thAt wiLl be gReaT if iT reaLLy rainS huNks! haHa!

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aftErNooN...

verY tirEd... iM goiNg bacK to scHooL laTer iN the eveNinG... siGh! iM slacKiNg aLl the tyM...
anywhErE... anYtYm... iVe chanGed alOt! i waSnt lIke thaT iN the pasT... dang! i stUdy...
i doNt slAck... i dO all mY hoMEwork... i uNderstaNd lessOns... iM keen tO leaRn...
nOW nO more!!! i canT gEt what tHe teachErs aRe teachIng Me... i caNt gEt whAt i want! i loSt moTivaTioN tO moVE oN... i maY lOOk carEfrEe iN sChooL... bUt thaT iSnT tHe reaL siDe oF mE... whO knOWs me weLl? no one! noNE... neitHer mY besTfriEnds dO... whY? cauSe theRe aRe certaiN thiNgs thaT i canT jUSt oPen mY moUtH aNd saY iT ouT loUd... it's jUSt haRd tO opEn uP aT tyMs... caUse yoU chanGed i chanGed... everYthiNg iS chanGinG 24/7...
sometymS I feel lIKe puTtinG a fuLLstoP tO everythIng assOciaTed wiTh Me... im loSt... reaLLy lost... i loSe mY sense oF tyM... iM tryIng haRd tO breaThe... mY famiLy doNt knOw me weLl... nO onE DOEs!!! WHo REAllY CARe? shOuld i laUgh aT mYselF or shoULd i crY?
i doNt knOw eiTheR... danG!

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hoT anD coLd...

nOW iM iN thE coMputeR laB wiTh aH liNg besIde mE... haHA... wE arE watChiNg a shOw regardinG seX lIFe... jEeS! haHa... thaT's aLl! doTs! siaN! to mE seX aiNt anYthInG greAt!!! jUSt dO iT anD paY a prICe for It... hahA... siaN! sEX! seX! seX! aHHh.... doTs! shaLL stOp hEre! ('_'!!)

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sunNy...

alWAYs LIsTEn To whaT yoUr elderly sayS... alAmaK! todaY iS thE firsT tym i maDe cuRry pUff.. aNd i havIng mY thiNGy oF the moNTh... and mY graNny beiNg 'baN danG' toLD me nOt tO baKE aS iT WOuLDNT TuRN oUT gOOd... aS iN whatever i maDE WoNT COmE OuT thE WAy I wanT... bUt i REFUsED To Listen... anD true enoUgh.. iT tuRned oUt lIke tSunaMi... er xiNg maN! thE doUgh tOO soGGy... haHa... eeK! i gave oNe tO daddy... haHA... he tOok a bIte and gaVe iT bacK to me... he shOok hIs heaD aND said' hmM! nO nIce' haHa...
mY currY pUff looKed oKay la... buT tastEd lIke... bleah! hahA...
lessOn taUght: doNt do thIngs wHen yoU are havIng yoUr moNthLy thiNg... haHa!

tO jiAn biN... haHa... you baNana... yOu doNt haVe tO teLl the WhoLe woRld whAt I teLL YoU ba!!(-_-!!) jUSt stAy haPpy... whaTever yoU dO haVe goT a price tO paY... oInk! smiLe... trY tO piCk yOuRseLf uP frOm whErE yoU feLl... iT may take mOnThs... peRhaPs even years... taKe iT easy... I wenT throUgh wHat yoU wenT throUgh... haHa! i must admIt iT aiNt easY...
Im taKinG thiNgs a steP at a tyM... be da faNG! jia YoU!

suNny...

todaY iS miD auTumN festIval... Im In THE MOoD for buRNiNg papEr laNteRNs...
danG! buT nO oNe to plAy wiTh... iM feelIng sad!
twO yeArs agO... i spEnt a memOrablE tyM aT tHE cenTral paRK plaYinG wiTh zhEn xiAn... hUi lIng... yaN liNg and hEr broTher... benjamIn... haW weI aND reBeCCa... (dID i miSs anYoNe oUt?) iT waS fuN... iT waS raiNiNg aroUnd sevEn pLUs... haHA... i liGhTed thE canDles anD helPed zheN xian tO dO soMe WAXiNG treaMent oN thE leg... haHA! fuN... i driPPed tHe waX oN hIs leGs and waiTed fOr iT tO drY uP... aNd pEel iT oFF... haHA... i goT thE waX oUT wiTh addtiOnaL thiNg! whaT eslE coULd iT BE bUt hiS leG haIr... haHa... bU gUi sHi maO maO!=) we haD oUr 'cAmP fiRe'... buRniNG thiNgs.. wE walKed aroUNd tHe paRk... hUi ling sUspecTed soMeoNe iN thE groUp liKes me... haHa... cause earLIEr On i meT thaT soMeoNE alONG wiTh mY coUsiN... anD we thRee walKed toGethEr... i wAS ABOuT To CROsS THe roAd when He graBbed mY haNd aND toLd me tO waiT... anD sO hUi liNg preSumeD he lIKes Me... whiCh i deNieD...( i dIdnt wanT her tO knOW he iS mY boYfrieNd...) haHA! she haS got accUratE siX senSe... i mUSt admiT... aftEr thAt i wenT hoMe alONg witH HuI LiNg... ThEy senT uS hoMe... oH miNe... me anD mY stoRy agAin...=)


(X(00)X)

niGht...

tO the oNe that i loveD aND chErisHed...

I know when she's been on your mind... That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over!!!
It's not the way I choose to live... And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older You know I'd fight for you? but how could I fight
someone who isn't even there... I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you!! I don't care if that's not fair...
Cuz I want it all!! Or nothing at all...
There's nowhere left to fall... When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all Or are we just friends?!?!
Is this how it ends
With a simple message
You leave me here with nothing at all??

There are time it seems to me... I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it... Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see!!!
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it , know it... Don't make me promises baby you never did... (sigh)
know how to keep them wellI had the rest of you now I want the best
of you it's time to show and tell...

(X(00)X)

in mY bRothEr's rooM...

Its early in the morning And my heart is really moaning
Just thinkin bout you baby
Gots me twisted into things
And i dont know how to take it But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right Im tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care So helpless in my heart
I dont know what to do but to think of mi loveBaby...........

Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart Now i know you know my lady im just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do im going
out of my mind So baby if u let me could i getch
u to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now i dont care if u got a man Baby i wish ud understand Cuz i kno he cant love u right, quite like i can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care So helpless in my heart
I dont kno what to do but to think of mi love

Amor no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like thatIts an obsession[Baby Bash]
Hold up let me drink
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, i love this candy
And thats whats up and i dont care what people scream
No im blessin when im stressin
My superfly beauty queen Im gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how i do, we go rendez-vous, mi corazon belongs to you

Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
what am i do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heartAmor... no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong) what am i do so wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart Amor

(X(00)X)

dangLy hoT!

i waS AT aH jAs's houSe celebRatiNg CheriE's birThdaY...
jEes! haHA... fuN! yeaH! wE yaM senGed! haHA... oH mIne! i proMisEd daD thAt i woUlD reaCh hoMe befOre siX! i diD!!! buT i waS fiVe mINutES awaY froM siX... haHA... aLL thaNks tO thE 292 buS... 'heaVenLY faSt' maN! i waS cursINg aND swEAriNG aT thE bUS... thE uNClE droVe thE buS sO slOWlY... idiOTIC maN! i waiTed foR 25 mINuTEs befoRe thE buS camE!
i aLIghTeD aT thE staDium's buS stOP... hoT!!! sweAtiNg aS i ruShEd mY waY hoME lIke a maD cha bO!!! i waLKed sO brIskLY thaT somethINg KepT boUNciNG... alAmak!
I WANtED To TAKe My SANdAlS Off ANd RUn HOme BUt ALot Of Rc PEOpLE At ThE PArK... VERy MAlu!!! So I JUsT KEEp WALkInG lO!!! anF i walKed pAsT tHE staGe anD saW oRanGE anD iVaN... jees! poM poM!!! poM pom!!! haHA... i juSt smIled anD walKEd oFf... cauSe rushINg fOr tyM ma!!! deN iVaN idiOtiCally caLLed oUT foR me" hI LydiA" iN a pyschOtIC waY... oH maRy! haHA... aFTer thaT i reacHed hoMe... haHA...

(X(00)X)

suNNy...

loVely momenT thE suN hasNt riSe...
yoU anD me watChed thE shIPs passiNg bY...
StaRiNg aT the loVelY skY...
we stRoLLed oN thE beacH whiCh beLOnged tO yoU anD i...
I thOUghT wE wEre iN neverlaND...
we dRew hearT shapE oN the sanD...
iNdicatIng oUr lOVe wiLL neVer end...
yoU gaVe me a pecK oN mY cheeK...
we boTH staRed aT the passiNg shiPs..
i asKed yoU 'whY aRe thEre lOtsa shiPs?'

yoU saiD 'siLly girL! thEy aRe thEre cauSe oF yOu and me!'


(X(00)X)

Cold COld...

iM iN the school's librbaRy agaIn! ya! aS usUal... HUa weN kE ma! haHA... hMMm...
iM preTTy pIssEd tOdaY... aS usuaL... i waS talKiNg tO thE waLL... jEes... doNt aSk me... cauSe I haD alReadY maDe mYSelF cleaR! OpEN THe HEAveN dowN!( I MEAn OppOSItE!) sO doNT aSk mE... iF yoU dO asK... aLL i caN saY iS... yOU haVe goT a menTalLitY oF a 1 yeAr olD kID... caUSe iT's siMPlE iNstrucTIon yEt yoU canT uNDerstAnD! doNt saY thaT iM shoWing attItuDe... cauSe yoU desErvE iT! ooPS! shaLL stOP hEre!

(X(00)X)

haPPy...

jEEs! i foUNd him On FRIeNDSTeR! Im HAppY... HAha! OInk! GOinG CRAzY... HAha! Oh MIne...
hE's sO cuTE! drOOliNG* haHa! doNt asK me whO he iS... cauSe... I woNt teLL yoU! haHA...
oH miNe! haPPy shalaLA!
tO biKini... sOrry foR noT retUrNinG thE caLL... mY cuTe tuMMy waS havINg baD mOOd... haHA... thaT i can haRDlY moVe afTEr viSitiNg thE toIlet... haHA... i truLy thINk iM suFfEriNG froM coNstIpatIOn... jEEz! i haVe goT thE chEek tO teLL everYone thAt! IM sUFfEriNG froM iT... i triEd tO coaX mY tuMMy tO lET iT oUt... buT... siGh! i guEss ta chI yiNg bu chI ruaN... haHA! oH maN! soRRy foR thoSe who carE tO reaD! haHA... cauSe tOday's enTry iS pretTy disguStiNG... shaLL stoP heaR!

(X(00)X)

haPpy! shaLala!

i drOOliNg oVer this guY! sO cuTe! aHHh... Im goIng craZy...
haHA... i foUnd hIm!!! yeah! =)

(X(00)X)

suNny

beEn sneezIng non-sTOp... theY saY if yoU werE tO sneezE ouT oF suDdeN meaNs soMEoNE iS miSsiNG yoU... hMmm... i haVe beeN sneeZing noN- stoP... i gueSs... haHa! soMeoNe iS miSsiNg me liKE nO bOdy's busineSs... Oo0! thAt's cooL!
tOdaY i had mY phoTo takINg sessIOn... iT turneD oUT thaT schOOl Is oN tiGHt budgeT...
anD ouR phoTograPher is noNe othEr thaN mr siN... doTs... haHa!
jeez! i hoPe the phoTos turN ouT niCe...=)
(oH miNE! i pUt oN a haIR baND! can yoU beLieve It? i beT iT's hOrrIbLe)
last nIghT... I messagEd friends and wisheD theM aLL tHe besT fOr theiR prelIms... hMmm... uGly surPrISed! he wiShEd mE "thanks... and your Ns too!' i waS uglY shocked! cauSed he haS goT lazY finGers... so kINd oF haPPy buT naH! pUrelY haPpy!

oh! tO that guY... iT is never easY tO psyCho yoUrself,
to piCk yoUrself froM whEre yoU feLL...
it's evEn harDer tO teLL yourSelf tHAt yoU wiLL bE abLe to fiND a beTTer oNE aheaD...
some maY saY shE has heR frienDs tO coNsoLe heR...
yeS! she doEs... bUT whO woUlD waNNa lISten tO heR saD stOriEs aLl daY loNg?
anD woUldnT heR frienDs get siCk of iT too? seeiNG heR breakdowN all The TYm... anD theR aRE some thIngs whEre oNE canT expRess iT verbaLLy!
YOu leFt hEr iN thE darK tO feNd heRselF... woUldnT thaT be a littLe tOo cruel?
anD yoU leFt hEr iN tHe tSunaMi stAte... scaRRed her foR thE tyM beiNg...
anD noW shE iS cuRRenTlY serVing hEr faLLiNG- iN-loVe-wiTh-yoU! terM...
shE doNt deservE thaT... siGH! spaRe a thoUGht foR heR... shEs in despaIr!

(X(00)X)

太陽天或下雨天
人擠人的咖啡店
找一個能想你舒服的角落
看著情人肩靠肩
慢慢轉開我視線
有個男孩讓我好想念
我的心
已經飛到這個城市的另一邊
想看著你
我愛的臉
把心裡的感情
都對你說
那馬路上天天都在塞
而每個人天天在忍耐
沒有你的日子很黑白
原來這樣就是戀愛
我想要你在我身邊
分享生命中的一切
我想要天天說
天天說
天天對你說
我有多愛你...

coLd coLD...

iM in thE schOol's liBraRy... oiNK!=) hMMm... iN thE libraRY readINg peoPles' bloG...
nO nO... iM noT beiNG a chicken graNNy... haHA! iT's hUa weN kE... iM suPPose to reaD peoPles' enTries... haHA...
tO biKiNi... oiNk... haPPy huA weN kE... sO ya Ya foR whaT... haHA... iM usiNg tHe coMputeR toO! haHA...
veRy siAn! (noW jiaN biN besiDe me... acT cuTE! stILl trY tO denY tHe facT tHAt yoU arE actINg cuTe!!!) haHa...
tO jiaN biN... doNt hmPH! caySe thiS iS my bloG!

(X(00)X)

niGht tyM...

~~~↕StAiRwAy To HeAvEn•†â~~~

no matter how i wait
i cant go
like a dummy crying
next to you
only gave me pain
wihtout you noticing
are you telling me to leave?

i miss you
i miss you
to the point where i hate myself
i want to cry
i want to knee down
if only everything didnt happen

seaching the memories where i loved you
crazily
those memories haunt me
but i cant hide from this love anymore
but i shoulcnt do this
but i miss you to death
but i miss you to death

(X(00)X)

Rainy...

rainIng ah kow aNd aH maO! i saW zI qiNg woR... haHA! yUn hoNg yoU yaO fa hUa chI Lo!
tO s'S stOp yoUr doTTy dot noNsense aH! whAt explaNade tingY! smaCk yoU aLl aH! haHa!
jeeZ! siGh! toDay wenT tO eat wiTH HuI , ling anD ganG... eeK! the fooD isnT niCe! the fish aND chipS tastEd more liKe fishY anD cheaP! soRRy!
eeK! serioUslY i thiNk giRls whO smoKe turn mE oFf... whaT so greaT? more liKe biMs maN!
now lIsteniNg tO tensioN... my favouriTe boy baND...

(X(00)X)

yoU dont haVe tO saY anYthiNg yoU knOw?
ziP iT uP...

coLd CoLD

yO! so haPPy... oN weDnesdAy dEe ShI hoU... i wenT bacK tO primaRY skOOl... sO haPPy... jEEZ! i saW mY frieNDs... waH! ME fa hUa chI again...=) hE plAys bbAll... oink! anD he liVes neAr mE.. foR aLL mY entiRe pRimaRy skOOl liFe, i didnt knOW hE knOWs mY naMe!=)
jeeS! hE iS z.Q! HmmM... haHA! saW mY favOuriTe teachEr... madaM goH! shE's sTILL the same... oH man! i entEred thE muSic rOOm wiTh beNjamIn... haHa... thE firsT thIng she saY waS ' i remEmbeR this girL... shE's alwaYs stanDiNg oN thE firsT roW...' hMMm... liKe thaT shOOt mE saY i shOrT...=) bUT iT's oK cauSe thaT's mY tE zhEn! haHA! oH ya! i shoUld be havIng p.o.A lessoN noW... buT madaM leoW isnT herE... oink! shaLL stoP herE le...
anD tO pei weN!!!!!! stioP loOkin herE whiLe im typIng!!! baNana biKini...

(X(00)X)